Recently I have read the book ‘Buddha is not smiling’ – thank you for protecting the lineage. May we also be able to help a little bit in the future and may all beings have the possibility to get connected to this prescious teachings. May there always be teacher to give the transmission.

When I was new to buddhism, a good friend of mine was telling me about how spetial was a lama that also was a Buda, as I was listening to my friend, I had the wish to eventually have a teacher of that kind, a perfect guide.

With the passing of time I ran into Rinpoche, who was the embodyment of that wish. With little but direct teachings he insisted on what practice to perform, practices that would fill a lifetime. I would always hold in my heart his advice on every level, it has been a great loss.

Words do not suffice to describe the deep, heart wrenching sorrow I feel having lost my precious teacher. Much as he often said they did not suffice to describe spiritual accomplishments which he tirelessly tried to transmit to us.
As I followed his coffin out of the cemetery the tears fell from face on to the rose I carried between my hands supplicating to him in this physical form for the last time. I was reminded of one of the first teaching I received from him on the samatabhadra wishing prayers. He explained as he gracefully held up a rose in his hand the inconceivable nature of reality. One dew drop, on one rose petal containing the entire universe and an infinity of Buddhas.
We in this world have lost a great mahasiddha. A true living example of a bodhisattva. Compassionately courageous, spontaneously gleeful, wise beyond any of our limited understanding with unwavering integrity.
I will always cherish the kindness he showed me, the laughter we shared and his guidance in every moment.
His smile was like the sun and as the Buddhist sutras say, it never discriminated where it shone but reflected on every surface of water equally. I feel as though the sun has set and left this world is a vast darkness.
I pray that he will return to us swiftly and the sun may rise once more to guide us, lost beings on the path to enlightenment once again.
Pal Pal Dil Ke Paas Tum Rahatee Ho
(You dwell forever in my heart)